Halfway Point

This week is the official halfway point for Autumn.

What a season it has been so far.

It has been more challenging than I ever anticipated or really wanted quite frankly. But even in the chaos (and it has been a true mess) I have found great clarity and have been blessed beyond measure.

I realized that when I fiercely stick to my wellness focus and living in the present, I thrive. But when I allow life to pull me away from those areas of focus, I begin to struggle. When off balance, every little thing that goes on can become traumatic, overwhelming and even seem earth shattering.

In this season of “starting over again“, I realize that we get opportunities to stop, adjust and restart as many times as necessary in life. Even though the season is halfway over, that doesn’t mean all is lost. But rather what a blessing it is that we have a whole other half of a season to get back on track and thrive.

I very much welcome the second half of Autumn.

~ C ~

Remember Me

One of my favorite things about Autumn are the treasured traditions and holidays that bring family and friends together. Although Día de los Muertos is not a holiday I have ever celebrated, in recent years (thanks to Coco) I have enjoyed learning more about it. There is something about “saying hello” to and celebrating the life of loved ones that have passed away that brings a smile to my heart. To me the Day of the Dead seems like a way to connect again with loved ones who are no longer with us during this special season. And I will take any opportunity I can to do that. Even though this isn’t my tradition or annual celebration, I am taking this time during this holiday to remember and celebrate my loved ones who are no longer here.

(The picture was previously taken at the Día de los Muertos exhibit in the Mexico pavilion in Epcot at Walt Disney World.)

~ C ~

Today

Today was the most unsuspecting day to be a transformative day but that is what it was. Today I was able to connect with some wonderful people, fill my mind with some powerful ideas and shower my spirit with some healing waters. For someone who is a introvert, normally a day with so much interaction would be beyond draining. But today was different. Today I focused on wellness from the inside out. Today I was reminded of who I was and what I had made it through. Today I remembered what and who is important to me. And it was if a switch suddenly came on, shedding light in my life.

~ C ~

Preparation

Lately a theme that has been weaving itself throughout my life is preparation. It’s as if I am staring from a 50 thousand foot view of my life and everything occurring now is necessary for the next scene to unfold. Yet unfortunately I can’t see exactly what is going on in that next scene.

I’ll come across online articles, news clips, books or even people that I feel a somewhat weird yet divine connection to. As if I needed to have these particular encounters in preparation for what is next for me.

I wish I knew what was next, but I suppose I’ll find out in due time. In the meantime, I’ll continue being open to the preparation currently taking place in my life.

~ C ~

Wellness Check-In

I have to be honest. Focusing on wellness this Autumn has been so incredibly difficult. I’m honestly at a loss. How in the season that inspires me so much, do I also get so far off track?

My eating, sleeping, exercising regularly, personal development focus, staying in the moment and staying in prayer have all been off over the course of the last few weeks. I mean I haven’t been awful I suppose but I’m certainly not where I want to be in all of those areas, among many others.

Although several reasons as to “why” come to mind, if I’m being really clear with myself then I’d have to say this is the season for me where I am finding it easiest to “slip”. And by “slip” I mean come up with an excuse to avoid making a disciplined decision.

As an example last week I wasn’t feeling great, which usually happens for me when the weather starts to change from hot to cold each year. Over the week it was so easy for me to pass on going to the gym, order no-so-healthy takeout (because I was too tired/sick to cook) and let my house clutter quickly to build up (because I was too exhausted to manage it). Instead of pushing through the current state I was in, I gave myself a little too much grace, that ultimately negatively impacted my health and wellness even further. And this is just one example of how off track I have been this season.

Now as much as I want to beat myself up over this, I realize it will only waste more time. So my action plan is simple. Go back to the basics and focus on the little decisions each day. Because each little decision adds up and makes a big difference. I will get reacquainted with my vision board, daily goals and my gratitude daily recaps.

I am refocused and ready to take back my Autumn.

~ C ~