There is light at the end of the tunnel…

Eight months ago I couldn’t even imagine the light at the end of the tunnel.

Life really has been (and will continue to be) step by step.

With time and faith as my teachers, I can say with 100 percent certainty that I previously was not prepared to get to that light.

I am a completely different person than who I was standing at that dark end many months ago.

I stand confidently today knowing that I am now ready for whenever I make it through this tunnel.

It won’t be the end. It will be the beginning.

~ C ~

Everything I Need To Know…

Anyone who knows me knows my deep love of anything and everything Disney. Even from my youngest days I remember being so amazed and inspired that it all started with a mouse. Many of my fondest memories in my life come from days spent at the Disney Parks with my family and friends.

After recently taking stock of my life and figuring out what is truly important to me, I made a promise to as often as possible fill my life with the people, places and things that bring me joy. Because honestly life is just too short to live any other way. And without question, all things Disney fill me with joy. From as small as my phone case to as big as a trip to the parks, it all brings a smile to my heart. And after these recent tough days, I’ll take all the smiles my heart can get.

One of my favorite Disney things I own is a book I came across called “Everything I Need to Know I Learned From a Disney Little Golden Book” by Diane Muldrow. This adorable and uplifting book is perfect for anyone from the ages 1 to 100. Using clips from countless Disney classic movies, it provides encouragement for navigating life’s twists and turns. And no matter what age you are, we could all use some encouragement from time to time. Although it’s hardly a book review selection, it will always remain one of my very favorite books.

~ C ~

Journey of Healing

I have spent the last 8 months on a journey of healing. Every minute has been hard, yet in the midst of it I have found joy. It has been pitch dark at times, yet at the same time I have been showered with immense light. It has been the worst period of my life, yet I know without it I would still be lost.

When I made the choice to move forward in my life after loss, I began by making a series of pivotal life shifts. I started a life long voyage of making healthier choices. I made focusing on my mental health and building effective coping mechanisms my number one priority. I embarked on a journey to relearn how to learn so I could grow in every facet of my life. I surrounded myself with only those people who lift and fill me up. I made a promise to find ways to serve others as often as possible along the way. I made a conscious decision that I will no longer be just a taker from this earth and find ways to give back and reduce my footprint. I reduced clutter from my physical and mental spaces to make room for possibility. I ran towards change because remaining in the same spot was no longer an option.

Day by day, I have made small decision after small decision, each with those life shifts top of mind. Quite frankly focusing on these decisions and shifts saved me from thinking about the people I had lost, the life I would no longer know and the person who I would never be again. At first I was fueled by blind faith alone. But slowly I saw the tiny changes I was making each day compound and make an actual difference in my life.

Today I am so proud of the person I have become through these decisions and shifts in my life. It doesn’t mean I have “made it”, I never will. It doesn’t mean I won’t have any more bad days or setbacks, I am positive I will have plenty. It doesn’t mean my grief is over, it is tattooed on every aspect of my being. But what it does mean is my joy and pain can coexist. It means my darkness and light can stand next to each other. It means the decisions I make today will positively affect my future. I am proud I have arrived at a place that seemed impossible to get to only 8 months ago. And moving forward I will continue to take this healing journey the same way I have over the past 8 months, step by step.

~ C ~