I honestly don’t know how to feel about today.
I do feel beyond relieved that 2019 is over. Quite honestly 2018 and 2019 have been some of the most brutal I’ve had in my life. Every day seemed like a battle and I was exhausted. I have always been an optimist by nature but these past few years have brought me to my knees and made me question everything.
I could recently tell I was just tired of it all and it all caught up with me. I could tell because writing has always been a release for me, but these past few weeks I didn’t have the energy or motivation to even think about it. The emotions of the first holiday season without my dad or our should be 6 month old son crept up on me. The first holiday season without both of my birth parents on this earth was more than I could process. All of the life (and there was plenty of it) that happened to me over that last two years seemed to be weighing me down during this already tough time.
I was tired. I am tired.
But a new year was just around the corner. My entire life I have loved the idea of a new year and all the possibility it brought. It always has such promise and hope, and now more than ever I needed both. And a new decade, even better. So as the new year approached, I found myself anxiously yet cautiously awaiting the strike of midnight. I didn’t know what would come but I desperately needed a new year.
As the minutes of the year came to a close, I found myself with mixed emotions. I was sad because I knew when I left 2019, I would be leaving the last moments with some of the most precious people to me. I was heartbroken thinking of all the hard times. Yet I found myself filling with pride that I had made it through it all. And I felt warmth thinking about all of the loved ones who helped me through it all.
I don’t know what this new year will bring. But I do know I am ready for a new year and I welcome a new decade.
So today I welcome 2020.
~ C ~
One of my favorite quotes from Oprah that I keep on my vision board.
~ C ~
I found this card months ago and it instantly touched my soul. I needed to hear this.
~ C ~
Life is a journey of ups and downs. Life is a collection of experiences and emotions. Life is the totality of all the small and big things.
So even though I am moving forward in life in the right direction, I still experience not-so-great days and small detours.
But in life now when I feel uneasy, have a bad day, become full of sadness or feel anxiety begin to creep in, I stop and remind myself it gets better. Because it does.
I am living proof of it gets better.
And it’s my life long goal to share this with others. Because sometimes we all could use a little reminder.
~ C ~
Encouragement tonight from my favorite Disney princess…
~ C ~
Anyone who knows me knows my deep love of anything and everything Disney. Even from my youngest days I remember being so amazed and inspired that it all started with a mouse. Many of my fondest memories in my life come from days spent at the Disney Parks with my family and friends.
After recently taking stock of my life and figuring out what is truly important to me, I made a promise to as often as possible fill my life with the people, places and things that bring me joy. Because honestly life is just too short to live any other way. And without question, all things Disney fill me with joy. From as small as my phone case to as big as a trip to the parks, it all brings a smile to my heart. And after these recent tough days, I’ll take all the smiles my heart can get.
One of my favorite Disney things I own is a book I came across called “Everything I Need to Know I Learned From a Disney Little Golden Book” by Diane Muldrow. This adorable and uplifting book is perfect for anyone from the ages 1 to 100. Using clips from countless Disney classic movies, it provides encouragement for navigating life’s twists and turns. And no matter what age you are, we could all use some encouragement from time to time. Although it’s hardly a book review selection, it will always remain one of my very favorite books.
~ C ~