A New Autumn

” Autumn shows us how beautiful it is to let things go.” – unknown

This quote perfectly sums up my life in this moment. Although it started off strong, as summer wrapped up I felt like my life was in complete chaos. Despite my best efforts to remain grounded in recent weeks, I could barely keep my head above water in what seemed like every aspect of my life. Things were hectic, difficult, emotionally exhausting, physically exhausting and uncertain.

But then on the very last day of summer, everything unfolded right before my eyes. The chaos was actually a clearing out. In the mess of it all, I saw the definitive ending to so many storylines in my life. Some of these storylines were a mere weeks in the making, yet some took many years to develop. Everything, and I literally mean everything, was coming full circle at the same time. It was so overwhelming to realize that it left me speechless. I believe in a higher power and in that moment I was 100 percent certain this was all part of a much grander plan.

But why the clearing? Why this day? And what is coming up next?

I have always believed with every fiber of my being in the power of Autumn. So much so that when I dreamed up this space it was the spirit of Autumn that guided my way. I have always wholeheartedly felt that Autumn was an end and a beginning all in one. Like the quote, I now more than ever believe in the beauty of letting go. This was the biggest lesson I’ve learned over the past few life seasons. It may not always be easy but it is so cathartic. And when we let go of old things, we unconsciously make space for new ones.

So I realized it just makes sense that today, the first day of Autumn and the season that means so much to me, my life feels clear and wide open. This has been the most tumultuous period of my life, yet I have in the same period grown in every way humanly possible. The clearing created from letting go of the chaos and the culmination of stories, has created an opening for endless possibilities and beginnings. This Autumn, more than any Autumn before, brings a sense of peace with it.

This first day of Autumn was chosen to be a pivotal point in my life. That I know for sure. I don’t know what is next for me, but I am hopeful. As I stare at the blank page in front of me, I know this is the beginning of a brand new book for me. I have closed the cover on the previous book and am ready for whatever lies ahead.

Today I welcome Autumn.

~ C ~

Doors

A new season approaches. The shifts in my universe are silent but felt with great intensity right now.

Doors are closing and opening all around me. I’m letting go of the old handles and walking with faith through the new doors.

~ C ~

Life Reminders

Today in various ways I was reminded of three important keys to life:

  • A vision board that regularly sits outside of one’s line of vision is as useless as the paper it is made out of.
  • Our bodies have an incredible way of telling us exactly what we need in life. The question is how often do we listen?
  • There is purpose in pain. We may not understand it at the time, but the pain is part of the preparation for something even greater.

~ C ~

Wellness Check-In

As exactly as I anticipated, September has been fast and furious. It has been full and challenging every step of the way.

If I’m being honest with myself, the whole month has been a bit overwhelming. And at first I was feeling a bit of defeat in my wellness journey throughout much of September.

But then I realized, I am actually doing much better, even during my stressed and frustrated moments, than I ever was before. Things and techniques that I have incorporated into my life have truly helped me stay afloat during extremely choppy waters.

The major lesson I will take away from September thus far is to just be honest with my emotional and energy levels. There is no badge in pushing through to prove a point while depleting all reserves at the same time. I am not superwoman and cannot do it all. It does me no good when in serving others I create severe need in my own life. No is such a powerful word that I must not be afraid to use. It will serve my wellness journey well.

~ C ~